What can typical people do within 2 days period? To me, none. I am in the state of directionless. A lot of random thoughts running across my head. What am I doing this for? Why do I have to wait for people to push me? To point their finger to do this to do that? Haven’t I tried to reach people enough?
No one was going to guide me~ you know, I found myself lost.
“When I am surrounded by people working their head off, it didn’t help me feel more productive; instead, I was so clueless of what I’m doing.”~Phanna
The clock was tickling so fast, lots of regrets coming to my brain. I feel so pressured. I felt so intense, it like there’s something in my chest about to explode. I don’t want to talk to anyone anymore, I needa get out and breath some air. I guess I don’t belong. Sometimes, I just happened to pick up random things and pretended I was having something to do just to not let myself feeling useless. But it didn’t help, it worsened the situation. It’s not what I’m supposed to be. It wasn’t the best way to start my day. I thought it was my ideal place, and I wanted to come here faster, but now I don’t. May be I wasn’t meant to be here….